I don't know for how many times I must grumble about this or about that...Luckily me card project has improved even just a little... I'd finish the draft of (FINALLY, even it is still looks weird) the wavy ocean, the santa (just the cap and the bunny), then the coconut tree, birds, sun, and the land (I'd to find some texture of sand...
Always... and always, in the beginning I was very full of energy for doing this project, but lately, after facing many things, and tough things, hmph, ...STUCK...At all, I can't control myself, and... --" just like today and yesterday.Feel sad, feel empty... T_________T just like I can't doing anything good.. feel just like very embarassed with my own skill... T____________T sometimes I feel...
Starting from found a cute kind of picture made from Illustrator when I was finding Illustrator Tutorials, and I feel someone said, THAT'S IT!!! Uwooo, love it very much really, now I'm learning for that... >< Making many kinds of vector art and also for my Christmas card project...Huff... Today I feel quite moody dunno why... -______________- but looks like something blame out...
Sometimes when we do our daily routine everyday, we feel nothing, just do the same thing. Study, work, and maybe many more. Then we feel something we often said bored..In fact, we have many things or nothing to do. Sometimes, no matter how many things we have to finish, if we are in our best condition and mood, I think that we will...
Still in the morning...Aaaaah really.. feel just like wanna sleep well but I can't.I was in dinner with my friend, and planning for my tomorrow plan. Spent my day just like before in loneliness. But you know, one week again, school will begin. So fast.. don't you think the same?I still have to finish my Christmas card...and also for my other project,scan my...
My last Christmas in my last year on senior high...Many memories.. and there's nothing changed so much inside...When I was in the chapel this night...I felt empty really.. Just like hear but don't understand... Want to know but can't. I wish to know what happened with me lately?Yesterday was a really nice and interesting day to spent.. Still play together with friends. I...
Again and again, in the morning and nice stomachache.. ~___________~There's no even ingredient to cook breakfast.. I won't eat instant noodle for 3 three days, will I?Really... Aaaaaaah... HOLIDAY there's nothing worth I can do. ...
Sometimes I feel, pathetic.. you know...Sigh~Now, just think of this...How can again I dream about someone...Sigh~ After writing for so much pages on my diary, I feel no more sick at all. But I don't know why too, why I can't sleep? Inside feels so worry...I remind about many things that we have done. But it always be a memory, that can be...
For hones I really like cakes, smooth cakes just like sponge type, so light with whip cream, with some fresh fruits toppings. Or sometimes the elegance of chocolate melted in me... Huaaaaah... want some cakes...Lately, I was browsing for many recipes of cakes. Many types of cakes that interested me much. Such as cheese cake, chocolate cake, and also STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE!!!! >.< aaaaaa...
I wish I will never have a brother as sucks as him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!If I don't remember about his disease and others, I was sure that I'd given a big shot to him.Really. How can he act like a jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Sigh! Really I really want to kill him!!!! ...
Will God hear again my words just like when I was a little girl?Will I be forgiven after saying things like this?Will I be punished after regret about my condition?Will I be tried again after this?Will I realize after this?Or will I be strong after passing this?Longer time, I just feel like a person that do my routine. Go to school and learn....
I don't know why, but actually, I was really sure that I can handle my emotional, but I don't know why ... so this afternoon happened things like that...Til now, I lost my voice because of screaming so hard about thing I'd held for long times. I really don't have any idea about what I supposed to do. But how can I forget...
Actually, I must laugh just like this morning I laughed and smile happily...But now, that feeling turn into pain and sick again... Even when I'd already known, it just a daydreaming, however it feels so sweet in real... but I must stop lying myself about wishes. In one side I feel happy, and I tried not to lie my feeling about that... But...
Okay2...Today really tough day. Why??After I know that I lost my flash disk, and I must remake all of my PSD tasks, really really sucks. And also before that I suffer again from my stomachache, really, if I must suffer like that every morning, looks like I prefer to stay in my dream world forever...T____________T and also about the gossip, gossip, and gossip...
Right now I'm thinking of changing my mind about him. Forget all memories about him, looks like will not do much...Around an hour ago, I realize that I might lost his memories about me, he might forget me, forever, until I pass the graduation day. But, I will not I will always remember this feeling, that I ever had, that I ever struggle...
First..Today, I woke up in the morning in unhealthy condition, I thought it was my bad mood in the morning effect so that I didn't take attention on it, and drink a bottle of very COOL milk and then went to school.Suddenly, when I arrived at school and put my bag, started to open my math books for review, I feel weird around...
...Today's afternoon, I supposed to be happy when he saw me for many times and we talked along, spent so much time together today. I see the same person, the same smile, the same kindness,the same style of him... all about him..Time changed so fast. I remember when the first time we met, until one year passed, we still do not know each...
Aah..Just that word I think that fit with my condition right now.Really not in mood for doing anything, even today computer is mine,my black USB is missing so that I can't copy download link for my photoshop argghhhh.... and also I can't instal MOF to my computer,DAMN! Even I have been copy the patcher from my driend. Really sucks... Hate this day!T.Thate all...
This kinda make me crazy...Sumpah, udah berapa kali gw ketiduran pas lagi belajar,dan berapa kali gw panik2 dan ngarang2 indah buat jawab soal essay terutama Sejarah yang, yaudahlah udah gw pasrahkan saja..Sisanya sih tinggal beberapa aja yang ga gitu susah, aaah gw berdoa UAS cepetan kelar deh. HELL bener2!!! Gw pengen cepet pergi jalan2... zzz banget daaaaaaa....Capek... Selasa >> B.Ind, Sosio... lumayanlah, ga...
Today...I though that should be a good day but I don't think so. Yeah, when I want to take a distance, he will came closer to me just like want to let me go nearer again with him. Sigh~ It's kinda hurting me a little..Today, I feel such great of pain in my head for many times each day and I don't know...
Really... with the same reason, for any explanation, it's already broken. I will not trust any one.When I gave them a chance, later they said that I just hurt them by making them waiting for me...When I said I can't, they said they will wait until I can then later they said I just played around with them.When I said I was hurt,...
...Huaaaaaaaah.... even today is Haloween Day, but I just think that I feel a little bit sad.. Jealousy...What happen with me?!! ...
...Sigh~ I don't know why but there's so many bad things happened!!! And guess what??Looks like I feel no power to tell story at school, just see in my class blog...And here I am, alone, in the midnight, and it is raining outside...Why? I don't know too... But I was browsing for awhile until that I got back into the site. Looks like...
Let's begin..Today... wake up in the morning, and immediately went to the salon!! Hehehe... looks like I've moved on so far from my daily activity and want to relax myself... And it's quite refreshing I thought, why? Even I've to wait around 2 hours for my facial list... Ahahahah, but the result.. just like we said, no pain no gain. And right now......
Aaaa... looks like it was sunny in the morning until noon, but suddenly looks like it became cloudy so quickly and I have no idea where it come from?? Sigh~ But today, rain has fallen 3 times and heavily... First time I hear the rain when I still on my part work, looks like very heavy and air became so cold at the...
Hahahahaha, tiba2 aja hari ini ada aura bahagia yang gw liat bertebaran dimana-mana, maybe karena ini hari Jumat kali yak?? Jadinya pada seneng... tapi sumpah... sejak asisten kurikulum pindah tangan, our schedule became very boring!!!! So ingetlah kawan kalo dulu hari Jumat banyak pelajaran santai, macem eko, seni, dsb... sekarang ditaroh lah pelajaran indah bikin ngantuk yang shiftnya dobel semua.. Apalagi dlu kan...
Here we go..Today, around 9 AM when Accounting class, and other students were very busy for remedial, I was wearing Jo's jacket, tightly, and writing on my file paper, with a black pen... Then I saw out of the window, sigh~ It's so cloudy there... It made me sick a lot, I remember again, that memory that should be disappear now...I continued my...
Fiuhh... really.. I cannot concentrate even for an hour,really, Math, and any other silly lesson, double and double, really NIGHTMARE, BIG NIGHTMARE...!!!After tiring hours of Computer,Geographic, etc. Sigh~ Meeting that GUY AGAIN FOR TODAY!!!!! ZZZ, what kind of sin that I've done today!Aaaaaaahhhhh... really like a big pressure meeting him and must facing the really... nasty flirting ... my gosh!!! Why must me..??...
Sigh~ after my HSK test and another test, I feel just like very busy around from this condition. Getting a headache again just like yesterday.. (waiting for my meal)Ow yeah..Aaaah.... smells so good this udon, ahem. Seems wanna eat now...Frustrated, and I was late go home now... sigh~ Really, suffer a lot inside my body, ahem, today I want to continue my tasks..Feel...
I still remember in a TV Show that have a title A Dream is A Wish Your Heart Makes, and for a while I remember from its BGM sound is Cinderella's song..Then I'm thinking of it til now.... Really... I don't mean not for having any dream along but..sometimes I feel I have a dream not in a right place... Sigh~ then now...
Gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa capek capek capek capek bangettttt, ga boong deh.Jalan kaki dari IBII ke rumah ternyata LEBIH JAUH dari apa yang gw bayangin...Tadi di IBII nemenin Tine yang observasi kampus n keliling muter-muter studio komunikasi... n macem-macem lah, abis itu juga masuk ke kelas anak yg lagi kuliah, gilaa udah seragam mentereng lage warnanya ijo2 gitu... mampus dah gw bilang... --" HahhahahahTerus yah udaaah...
~_~ I really dunno how, but this news spread so fast, and it really KILLING ME MORE than 3 years ago, when something like that spread in a same way...Jelas aja lah ya!!!!! Gimana ga heboh kalo tiba2 menyebar issue gw dah married, sama manusia cumi!!! Notabene, statusnya still my teacher bro... at SCHOOL lage!!!! Aduuuuuuh gw bener2 mo meninggal dah rasanya... --"...
This the story~I remember that I always protecting 'it' .... Kept on the deepest of my heart, let it drown inside and never float on the surface... I'll never let anyone know...Even it feels hurt... hurt me a lot... I always act like there's nothing happen..Little pair of wings, that it want to came out, spread into the world... spread outside of mine,...
Sigh~Really... Love this day.. Feel a little bit yeah.. free.But, even my painting have not finished I didn't feel sad at all.. later I'll finish it.. Hahaha.. I still have no idea for that...Maybe tomorrow or next week, when I've my free time really for my own, must waiting until the inspirations come... Aaaah...My MOF really stuck at all.. Today I realize that...
Sigh~ Looks like a huge meteor step on me...Looks like I have no more cheer or even little smile on my face, even people can hear it just from my voice. Do I looks bad today??? T_T I don't know but I feel really depressed because I've not finished my comics and also my study, and the worst so many tasks ... I've...
Lately, I woke up really late in the noon... T_T I dunno why...Sigh~ My physical body seems suffer a little pain because of myself... T_T sigh.. I wish I could forget these.. ...
I want to cry, but I can't I don't know why...Here, feels so sick, painful... and really suffer a lot of pain.Sigh~None of them said that I'm bothering them.. even I feel really like that. I'm bothering their life, even when they said I am not, but at the end, should I give u the worst evidence to show you that I am...
Really... It hurts inside here..Should I choose you??I'm not ready enough for love... I don't want to forget those painful memories...But it keep suffer a lot... ...
Sigh ~ I can't believe IT!!Yesterday, I think I'll collapsed coz of exhausted... Really.. Yesterday felt so short time to spent til I went home at 11:30 PM at night.. Waaawww.. But really I spent fun time with friends, chat together, watching dancing fountain, watching at the theatre and many more. Really it was FUN...Because of that I think I can't continue my...
Really... I think this gonna kill me.. Anytime...I never wishes for something hard. Eventhough them... But, yeah, why me? I wish for my wishes come true, and they too. When I don't get that dreams come true, they also get the same thing, and it was because of me.. Sigh~Tragic huh?Talking about it... just keep this pain killing me..But, they can get more...
I wish of many great things I would receive with my hands. But... I am scared if I will broke someone's wish in my life... Even after he said NEVER MIND...People can make any decision.. included me. Til now, I still can't forget about my past. It was too fast for me if I must walking with someone beside me.. as someone that...
Right now at 11:25 PM...My head getting dizzy, and this pain kinda killing me, really, it just like sticking from my right back to in front...Sigh~ This make me feel no comfort at all.. And the good thing is... I'm alone here, listening to the music.Looks like if I have pair of wings I could fly then hide myself between the clouds...Really..Night walks...
The deadline is 30 September, I hope I still have enough time for coloring especially for the comic and fan art... after that I will focus on my next comic project and also with my short stories... Looks like task will never ended but really I love this kind of busy thing...Next project... move on to next one, feel very proud if I...
Really.. I still cannot believe myself that last Tuesday I was called by Lyto Staff that I was the winner of the Poem Competition for Event Seal 2nd Birthday!!!!Wew... MP3 even just a little thing, but ~_~ FREE.. just for that FREE... waaaawww.. ... Very happy!!!!!Sigh~This is my second winner after my first Quiz on MOF, really, now I'm preparing myself for making...
I was being sent to the graveyard by someone.. Maybe, I was wished to be died... I was being sent to the graveyard by someone.. Maybe, I was wished to be died... ...
Really feels suck when I lost today because of cowardness...--"HATE IT...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH... ...
Right Now is 1 :13 AMSigh, I still collecting the materials... After print them, I'll go studying then go to sleep.. Getting dizzy... FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!!!! MOVE TO FINAL!!!! ...
WE MOVE ON TO SEMIFINAL!!!!!!!!!Really we're so depressed because we just answer around 9 questions on theory from 25 questions...~_~ Hahahhahahah really, and also we are on the fourth grade after SMUK 1... Really surprising us!!!!!Hahahahha... But really... it's a tough, amazing and unforgettable moment...Really... Speechless, I should say like that... And today we got an oppurtunity to talk a little with Ms....
Maybe strange, I had no made the first one, but never mind, because today is the second day we will BATTLE ON!!!!I've prepare myself with studying carefuly about FIFO LIFO, because I want to finish the main test of today's Competition.... After that, I still read some theory and also studying again about DEPRESIATION...Sigh~ it come a lot of question about that and...
Woke Up with a dizzy...Feels pressed on in my chest heavily til I can breath, then now I'm right here in front of my computer, I don't know what should I write in here?Really if not because tomorrows Accounting Competition, I won't hold til now... Sigh I dunno why I'm being like this. At least at 1 AM I must started even untill...
Gila rasanya sableng bgt msnan ama banyak orang... ~_~ pada banyak bener yang ngajak chat, dr yang ga penting sampe penting...zzzz dizzy a lot. Gila rasanya sableng bgt msnan ama banyak orang... ~_~ pada banyak bener yang ngajak chat, dr yang ga penting sampe penting...zzzz dizzy a lot. ...
I tried a lot to hold these tears, even with read so many jokes, but I just smile, without any passion for laugh freely..... I tried a lot to hold these tears, even with read so many jokes, but I just smile, without any passion for laugh freely..... ...
Suicide, in a hotel, in a hospital. Really I don't know what kind idea I've got to draw, when I think about it then I've just draw it, then it's over... Just like the last one... N I'm thinking of new idea. I'm in mood drawing people with deep feel in a room... full background I mean, as an exercise too..But I'm in...
Sigh~ I woke up in the morning with a dizzy, n a phone call... after chat for an hour, sigh I'm silent myself, and thinking through... Now, while I'm listening to Suteki da Ne, these tears began to fall down, picking the lost memory back into myself...Depend on someone that hope for life, meet someone she loves.. that sacrifice his life for her...
Really, tough Saturday, and it was a surprise to be licked by kids, hiyaaakkk, I mean licked for the true MEANING...But after that I have fun with friends and playing for around 2-3 hours with them... Spending time together and totally refreshed til now.Now, I'm sketching for novel's draft, n then also want to study Account...~_~ well... I don't know what should I...
Abis makan bakso enak banget.... ~_~ aaaaahhh nyaman n nikmatnyaaa...Sigh~ I don't know must happy or not but surely, I feel a little disappointed... Maybe totally disappointed. The percentage of it is already 0% right now. Feel sad? I don't know too... For sure I don't know... anything, at least for right now.I can't believe how silly I can be!!!!!Sigh~ Feelings must always...
Sigh~This feeling keep coming through. After read the full version of short story that I read when Indonesian language test last Monday…I'm keep thinking.. Is that really that girls will be always lose? Sigh I don't know why I can think like that... Beautiful girls, the perfect one, they have beautiful face, nice body, light skin, and man likes them eventhough they don’t...
