Always... and always, in the beginning I was very full of energy for doing this project, but lately, after facing many things, and tough things, hmph, ...

STUCK...

At all, I can't control myself, and... --" just like today and yesterday.

Feel sad, feel empty... T_________T just like I can't doing anything good.. feel just like very embarassed with my own skill... T____________T sometimes I feel something like that, maybe often..

I don't know why I can be very confidence on myself and also can be not confidence at all with my ability for many things. I just want to try my best but really.. I really don't know why I can fall in the middle of the most important process... I really disappointed with myself, really...

STUCK.. No idea and also no idea about what should I do?? Then, -________- I am STUCK, thinking about something that's not important, and also ... take a lot of energy just for that, feel angry to myself, disappointed, and many again...

T____________T beside that, I am stuck in the other side too...

Eventhough he said yes, I don't think that he would love me so. I just know about someone who likes playing around, and I have a little time get into his game.. But, just like I'd said, it will pass away.. just like others, become sweet memories... ^^ that I will never regret..

I know that he is not the one, so that I think, I should start now... Before the time come, and gone with all of this, left me alone behind... Just like few years ago.. an also many years ago.. Passing without doing anything. But there's nothing I can do again..Even I can, it will not affect anything. So, just let it flow. Even just the same smile, same things, that never changed. It's enough, quite enough amount of happiness that I'd ever felt in my last year...