Let's begin..

Today... wake up in the morning, and immediately went to the salon!! Hehehe... looks like I've moved on so far from my daily activity and want to relax myself... And it's quite refreshing I thought, why? Even I've to wait around 2 hours for my facial list... Ahahahah, but the result.. just like we said, no pain no gain. And right now... I'll start my busy day...

3:37 AM in the morning

I've just finished wrote my math and geography notes, after that I supposed to draw Garuda Pancasila, but I think I'll do that later... Sigh~ While I'm hearing to the music, waiting for my MP3 next Saturday, hope it will be mine...I must draw the comic, must but, I think I should take a rest right now... (Full House again...) Looks like tomorrow and other days will be very busy to pass...

Uhm... I've slept for around 5 hours I think, so that I don't feel sleepy now... (This song kinda making me suffer again)... Looks like I have no mood at all for sleep.. I don't know. And I wish tomorrow morning, it will be raining, just wished... Lately, in any rain, I feel hurt deeply, silent myself then see through the windows that view was so misty, so cloudy and so cool, just like what I've feel inside, it's tough, and it was so long until the last time I cried in the rain... I feel sometimes I must go out between the rain and step there with these tears, let them go...

I wish... these cold were never gone, even I suffer, I wish I had not forget the pain, the tears, the sight, the cold and also the feels... I wish tomorrow will be rain, cloudy and a little dark... I still like the fresh smell of rain, I still missed when it fall on my head, I want to hear when it fall down heavily, I want to feel that I am not here, I am not in the past again... Because I don't see your face in the rain, blurred so fast, so that I wish I could forget you forever...

Time is running so fast, it's almost 4 AM.

Today, I feel disappointed too for another her... Yeah, there's no FRIENDS... I mean if they just kind to me when they need me... Feel sick, and also unhappy, but there's nothing I can do.. If I said, they judge me as a bandit, if I don't so that thwy will not judge me further more... Life is about choice, and I've chosen this, why? Yeah, if someday I could tell them how they act... I think they'll face the mirror, and see who are them... I don't like taking revenge, there's no use of revenge... People using many things to cover their fault, their nasty trash... Why? Even without trying to make it better, even just a little... Even just for saying sorry, but looks like the price were very high for exchange it with a sorry... I just want to silence myself, I've been very bored with an act like that... There's no use act just like anything in front of me, I saw it, I've seen it clearly... where's the right? And the wrong side...

Silence is GOLDEN... Then how could world will changed? If everyone were like them?

I wish tomorrow morning... even a little bit... rainy day.