This the story~

I remember that I always protecting 'it' .... Kept on the deepest of my heart, let it drown inside and never float on the surface... I'll never let anyone know...Even it feels hurt... hurt me a lot... I always act like there's nothing happen..

Little pair of wings, that it want to came out, spread into the world... spread outside of mine, making a barrier for myself... protecting me from the outside.. It supposed to be like that, but... I've been locked it deep inside so that it has lost its shine, its power to fly, its feels to protect, to survive...

Whenever it want to come out, I pull it tightly, and look at it sadly... with thousands of tears drop, I never want to let it go. I feel hurt... sick inside... Even just keep it in my heart, but it come through from my eyes,from my face... even I just want to keep it by myself.. Even I just want to keep it inside... I feel hurt... I think that it must be forgotten, I don't want anyone knew, I don't want anyone realize the truth... Even my body go through the future, I just say let my heart dying in the past... I wish if I can turn back time.

It look at me painfully, accompany me when I'm down, feeling sad alone, that I realize now, I'll never anyone get into me... That I've closed myself for everyone.. That I never want to any cure me, holding me, or just try to know me more... I don't want to forget... Even for an easy reason... even other think useless, even no one care... But I still want to protect it... I don't want to lose it... Even looks very bad, even I must suffer, but it will feel more sick if I forget... Because I will never forget? Each time I remember I will suffer more...

Now I'm on a point.. Will I release it? Let it fly through the other...Let if fly and spread its shine and let all of them smile... Even... I feel I will not be better after release... but I think there's no other reason for me now, to just keep it locked inside, even this hand still holding it carefully... Still hope that time can be turned back..