I still remember in a TV Show that have a title A Dream is A Wish Your Heart Makes, and for a while I remember from its BGM sound is Cinderella's song..

Then I'm thinking of it til now.... Really... I don't mean not for having any dream along but..sometimes I feel I have a dream not in a right place... Sigh~ then now it begin to suffer again, even just a little..

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dream you will lose your heartaches
Whatever you with for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true....

Sigh~

I feel that in my dream I lose my feelings, I feel the heartaches, even when I am fast asleep, I'm grieving on my own, crying on myself... Even when I keep on believing on my dream, and when it happened, it scratch a big one...There's no one care. Frustrated.. depressed, and down deeply..


I wish if I can believe in dream, even looks stupid, or maybe looks nonsense, but I have no any idea that I could believe on again. It making sounds of ache.. Screaming quietly, making me feel so pressed, being cornered...

Sigh~

I have no any idea anymore.. I am really not in a good mood that I can trust one or another, I just believe, maybe this is the last one. The true feeling I felt 3 years ago, looks funny now, and maybe this will be too. How can I reach unreached breeze that I will never climb over it? And other fact that I will not own the crown as the chosen one... It keep making sound of my heart, truly.. I feel I can handle this by myself.. but in fact,I just like other, have my own limit.. Feel sucks with that..

I'd told myself for many times that I don't have to believe in dreams anymore, life is harder than we realize... And now, I realize that I don't have many time just like years before, this is the last chance for me. I really never know that high school year will end so quickly, just like yesterday I was a new student in grade 10, but now I'm in grade 12 and almost graduate...

Sigh ~ (get a new headache because copy of my score results is lost... gosh!)

Ah,I don't know why...I really have a great pain inside... I wanna cry, really want to cry...

Sigh~

Dream... is really I can make it come true?