On the way home, I just can't believe... no fight doesn't mean everything is alright.. yeah, and remember I was talking about forgiving and happiness for these days, I doubt if I even can handle myself.. maybe I should take my time alone for few days...

It's kinda things I can't run from again... well I know the pain she suffer, maybe worse than mine, but looking everyone were smiling, hiding their tears, I thought I may cry for that part...

It's not about being tough anymore, it's not about any wishes, or optimism... it's about fact.. things I know.. it's getting worse days by days..If the basic part of a building has already broken, then we don't have much time to wait until the whole building will broken... for a while, that's what I get in my mind... I really can't tell what do I feel right now...

Seems spent all night is a good way to forget... yeah... I'd been enough for these things.. quite enough for looking those two... I'd prepared myself even for a new status if something really happen in the future.. I'm not a kid anymore, so even though break it all is the only way, there's no reason for me to say NO anymore...