Here we go..

Today, around 9 AM when Accounting class, and other students were very busy for remedial, I was wearing Jo's jacket, tightly, and writing on my file paper, with a black pen... Then I saw out of the window, sigh~ It's so cloudy there... It made me sick a lot, I remember again, that memory that should be disappear now...

I continued my job, until the bell ringing, time for break. Then I went out and took my meal outside the class, after that, I went to the library and borrow some books. Rain fell lightly, and I keep the jacket tightly, my head was really heavy, and I think I may out from the class. But, along Geographic class, I have no idea to follow the lesson, I even can not concentrate myself just to hear the explanation, just going around, hang on my chair, that was very cold by Air conditioner, then I pull the jacket tightly... My stomach getting sick again, really just like wanna die..

Bell was ringing, break again. Then I went to copy a recommendation letter for university, then walk there and here, until the bell was ringing, and I swallow my bread quickly.Along Economy Class, really, I just hang on my chair without jacket, even Randy has offer me to switch seat, and also want to borrow me his jacket.I have no power to say, just lift my head a little then said ,"No thanks".. after that I put my head on my desk, and let the air flow behind my back, through my arms, feel so cool, but I can not move, but ... even when my eyes were closing, to rest my body, I still took attention to Ms. Ciska's explanation, even there's no one words I've missed.After that, some of boys in front of me asked,"Are you sick?" I just said weakly, no. And after that, I borrow Randy's jacket, until the end of the class, looks like I regained back my health...

After waiting around one hour, washed my face, ate my lunch, then took a nap around 20 minutes, I must go for work. When I woke up, rain has fallen heavily, and on my way, it was getting bad, just like it touching my heart hardly, then I remember, about promise of The First Rain in This Season... Old promise, but I dunno why, I'm crying deeply and quietly in the car. I sobbed it and felt so sick, really sick inside that may not be forgiven.. I feel sick when rain keep fell down heavily, breathe heavily, and also feel a little fever...

Really, I met the children, some of them kinda make me mad, sigh~ after that I went home, it was so cold, that I just sit on my chair then close my eyes... Sigh~ really, it's sick at all.. So sick.. Until I went home and I must force myself to do that and this... I dunno why, but now looks like I want to hurt myself rather than what people do...

Now, I still have to finish my slide, my notes, and also myself... I don't know just feel like I am happy if now I am pushing myself... My feet feel so sick, knees also so painful... These pain come back just like a nightmare... Again and again.. Inspiration of the rain, after that, I got many idea to wrote, but looks like physically I still not ready at all... Aaaah I still have to collect many data for my college preparation. Must go to the doctor for get the letter of non color blind..

Sigh~

Then I read my class blog, really, a little funny, but it will be unforgettable memory in my life, in my senior high... Time passed again, time to do works... Sigh~

Sorry...I've decided to forget you, and move on to the future..I won't come back anymore... I will not.. I promised.