Really... with the same reason, for any explanation, it's already broken. I will not trust any one.

When I gave them a chance, later they said that I just hurt them by making them waiting for me...

When I said I can't, they said they will wait until I can then later they said I just played around with them.

When I said I was hurt, they said that this is the hurt I made for myself.

It's keep make me suffer a lot. Feel very sick. For I dunno how many times. That I always be the wrong one, even I just don't want to hurt others. Even I just want to see they smile, even I was very hurt inside here, I can't forgive myself that show sadness in other's face. But why must me?

Even I know I was the one that always be the victim, but for any mistakes and regrets, why I must handle it alone? This fact kinda make me feel suffer a lot... If there's no one can accept me with open handed, so that I will leave, I will never give any kindness or pain for all of you..

This is enough for the last. That I don't hate you because of that. But it's enough, I can't hold more than this...This body feels very sick and weak.