Today...

I though that should be a good day but I don't think so. Yeah, when I want to take a distance, he will came closer to me just like want to let me go nearer again with him. Sigh~ It's kinda hurting me a little..

Today, I feel such great of pain in my head for many times each day and I don't know why. Because my disease must already cured right now, and since I got sick, this headache come... Really, I can feel pain for around 5 times each day. Sigh~ Then I feel regret again...

I wish today will be rain. But til now, looks like sky was so bright that it will not rain. Listening to the mellow song, looks like became my hobby now. For last two days, I passed the night with tears and a great pain in my hearts, even when I had already alone, not with anyone just like before. But there's a feeling that I feel very hurt, sick, and feel so regret. I feel about myself, about others, about the feelings that make me breath so hard every night.

Not just about beautiful words or lyrics in a song, or maybe kind of melody that reminds me of pain. But really, I can't forget how I ever suffer for this thing many times until now. Keeping this feeling is important, but it is very hurt for know the truth I will not get it. It hurting me far away there. There's so many things in my head.