Abis makan bakso enak banget.... ~_~ aaaaahhh nyaman n nikmatnyaaa...

Sigh~ I don't know must happy or not but surely, I feel a little disappointed... Maybe totally disappointed. The percentage of it is already 0% right now. Feel sad? I don't know too... For sure I don't know... anything, at least for right now.

I can't believe how silly I can be!!!!!

Sigh~ Feelings must always be different than other, that's me.

Eventhough I really want someone for... but I think it's not the right time to think about that after losing someone that important, less than 1 month..Important... How can I lose that meaning of words? How can that feelings come through when I've had someone besides me...

Hard to believe that I must lost each of them in a distant time...Must I worry? Or must I sad?? I don't know anything, I feel no more feelings to feel... There's no pain, even when I am smiling, I really don't know how can I smile behind all of these... When I am smiling, I hide all of about this... I must hide all of about secret that I won't tell anyone... That I won't let anyone touch it, reach it, or know it... I have one side that I do't want any other know about that... Even if I've trusted more to them... I feel that this is just the only secret that just me and God that know about that... These pain, never lst, suffer in each beats.

Eventhough people think this is silly or simple, for me, it's not as simple as that... Really... If I've done something out of the line, that means I have my other reason for doing thing like that... And also in this time.I have another reason that people may never realize, eventhough I fail... Yeah, I've know from the very beginning that it won't work how hard.. I'm no the CHOSEN ONE...

I just about the helper in this life... Won't be chosen... Eventhough they want to choose me...