I don't know for how many times I must grumble about this or about that...Luckily me card project has improved even just a little... I'd finish the draft of (FINALLY, even it is still looks weird) the wavy ocean, the santa (just the cap and the bunny), then the coconut tree, birds, sun, and the land (I'd to find some texture of sand...
Always... and always, in the beginning I was very full of energy for doing this project, but lately, after facing many things, and tough things, hmph, ...STUCK...At all, I can't control myself, and... --" just like today and yesterday.Feel sad, feel empty... T_________T just like I can't doing anything good.. feel just like very embarassed with my own skill... T____________T sometimes I feel...
Starting from found a cute kind of picture made from Illustrator when I was finding Illustrator Tutorials, and I feel someone said, THAT'S IT!!! Uwooo, love it very much really, now I'm learning for that... >< Making many kinds of vector art and also for my Christmas card project...Huff... Today I feel quite moody dunno why... -______________- but looks like something blame out...
Sometimes when we do our daily routine everyday, we feel nothing, just do the same thing. Study, work, and maybe many more. Then we feel something we often said bored..In fact, we have many things or nothing to do. Sometimes, no matter how many things we have to finish, if we are in our best condition and mood, I think that we will...
Still in the morning...Aaaaah really.. feel just like wanna sleep well but I can't.I was in dinner with my friend, and planning for my tomorrow plan. Spent my day just like before in loneliness. But you know, one week again, school will begin. So fast.. don't you think the same?I still have to finish my Christmas card...and also for my other project,scan my...
My last Christmas in my last year on senior high...Many memories.. and there's nothing changed so much inside...When I was in the chapel this night...I felt empty really.. Just like hear but don't understand... Want to know but can't. I wish to know what happened with me lately?Yesterday was a really nice and interesting day to spent.. Still play together with friends. I...
Again and again, in the morning and nice stomachache.. ~___________~There's no even ingredient to cook breakfast.. I won't eat instant noodle for 3 three days, will I?Really... Aaaaaaah... HOLIDAY there's nothing worth I can do. ...
Sometimes I feel, pathetic.. you know...Sigh~Now, just think of this...How can again I dream about someone...Sigh~ After writing for so much pages on my diary, I feel no more sick at all. But I don't know why too, why I can't sleep? Inside feels so worry...I remind about many things that we have done. But it always be a memory, that can be...
For hones I really like cakes, smooth cakes just like sponge type, so light with whip cream, with some fresh fruits toppings. Or sometimes the elegance of chocolate melted in me... Huaaaaah... want some cakes...Lately, I was browsing for many recipes of cakes. Many types of cakes that interested me much. Such as cheese cake, chocolate cake, and also STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE!!!! >.< aaaaaa...
I wish I will never have a brother as sucks as him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!If I don't remember about his disease and others, I was sure that I'd given a big shot to him.Really. How can he act like a jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Sigh! Really I really want to kill him!!!! ...
Will God hear again my words just like when I was a little girl?Will I be forgiven after saying things like this?Will I be punished after regret about my condition?Will I be tried again after this?Will I realize after this?Or will I be strong after passing this?Longer time, I just feel like a person that do my routine. Go to school and learn....
I don't know why, but actually, I was really sure that I can handle my emotional, but I don't know why ... so this afternoon happened things like that...Til now, I lost my voice because of screaming so hard about thing I'd held for long times. I really don't have any idea about what I supposed to do. But how can I forget...
Actually, I must laugh just like this morning I laughed and smile happily...But now, that feeling turn into pain and sick again... Even when I'd already known, it just a daydreaming, however it feels so sweet in real... but I must stop lying myself about wishes. In one side I feel happy, and I tried not to lie my feeling about that... But...
Okay2...Today really tough day. Why??After I know that I lost my flash disk, and I must remake all of my PSD tasks, really really sucks. And also before that I suffer again from my stomachache, really, if I must suffer like that every morning, looks like I prefer to stay in my dream world forever...T____________T and also about the gossip, gossip, and gossip...
Right now I'm thinking of changing my mind about him. Forget all memories about him, looks like will not do much...Around an hour ago, I realize that I might lost his memories about me, he might forget me, forever, until I pass the graduation day. But, I will not I will always remember this feeling, that I ever had, that I ever struggle...
First..Today, I woke up in the morning in unhealthy condition, I thought it was my bad mood in the morning effect so that I didn't take attention on it, and drink a bottle of very COOL milk and then went to school.Suddenly, when I arrived at school and put my bag, started to open my math books for review, I feel weird around...
...Today's afternoon, I supposed to be happy when he saw me for many times and we talked along, spent so much time together today. I see the same person, the same smile, the same kindness,the same style of him... all about him..Time changed so fast. I remember when the first time we met, until one year passed, we still do not know each...
Aah..Just that word I think that fit with my condition right now.Really not in mood for doing anything, even today computer is mine,my black USB is missing so that I can't copy download link for my photoshop argghhhh.... and also I can't instal MOF to my computer,DAMN! Even I have been copy the patcher from my driend. Really sucks... Hate this day!T.Thate all...
This kinda make me crazy...Sumpah, udah berapa kali gw ketiduran pas lagi belajar,dan berapa kali gw panik2 dan ngarang2 indah buat jawab soal essay terutama Sejarah yang, yaudahlah udah gw pasrahkan saja..Sisanya sih tinggal beberapa aja yang ga gitu susah, aaah gw berdoa UAS cepetan kelar deh. HELL bener2!!! Gw pengen cepet pergi jalan2... zzz banget daaaaaaa....Capek... Selasa >> B.Ind, Sosio... lumayanlah, ga...
