Tema saia untuk hari ini adalah... "I'm Starting a NEW LIFE!!!"

Semangat banget, ga sia2 semalem tidur jam setengah 4 gara-gara berpikir... (nggak, 50% nya baca komik .. menenangkan isi kepala)... XD.. Diartikan, MEMULAI (bukan menempuh yeee... ingattt!!!!) hidup yang baru... means apa ya?? mungkin lebih ke... pembaharuan isi kepala gw... ~___________~ mentok, padet... mungkin kalo gw gambarkan isinya udah acak-acak nggak karuan pokoknya... Hueeeh... ^___< just try my best!!!! I thought this morning... after prayed.. Abis gw ngomong ini itu, ngeluap-luapin semua yang ngebebanin hati dan pikiran gw... I feel more.. FREE... even just a little bit.. ^_________^

About CHANGES...I think that I can't do anything futhermore again... if I'd tried my best to stay, but others can't then I can't say such things to make them have a same thought with me.. I just can LEFT IT BEHIND... and whenever they come back, I'll always open these hands to receive...

About LIES, I think that it's a NATURE of human being, for avoiding something.. that may annoy, or another again... Eventho I'm sure that there's no one in this world, likes to be lied ... I just hoping in my heart, one day there's no more lies again... I'm forgetting everything that would make a pain for heart...

About PROMISES, I think it will go as LIES

About LIFE, I remember about this sentences... Anytime, be sure that you're ready to face HIM... yeah, so what should I worry about? Today, tomorrow, 2 days again, next week, next month... no one know.. So what should I worry again??? Even when I wanna stop, I can't. And when I wanna continue, but some day I will not be able to anymore...

About MEMORIES, such a lie if I told I will never remember again... or act as I never know... Sweet memories were always nice, even when we remember, when we made it, but somehow... it was really killing whenever we have to left it behind, with the past... Sweet memories, eventho so nice, eventho with anything we never wanna left, I'd told you that life must go on..Even we cried, we hold it tight... there's no way for us to let go.

About THINGS I CAN'T MENTION, I realize I must not regret anything in my life. There's always sky over the sky, and land under the land... There you go... HUMAN'S LIFE...Kalau sebuah benang terlampau kusut untuk diluruskan, mungkin ada baiknya kita potong di satu sisi, dan melanjutkannya dengan sesuatu yang baru...I'm not telling that it is an easy things to do as I wanna change my computer, or my mobile profile... For many times I'd holding many things, even without anyone realize... If I could be honest, I never wanna take this hard way to do... It's really hurt..

If it would be easy, I won't cry now...
If it would be easy, I won't think twice...
If it would be easy, I won't hold myself take apart from the PAST...
If it would be easy, I won't let even a little part go away...
If it would be easy, I won't regret if I must die now...
If it would be easy, I won't smile by hiding tears...
If it would be easy, I will smile as I ever promised...

This is a decision I can't go by myself.. Many things I should think about too.. ^_____________^ therefore... I will try my best to smile... never wanna someone worry again about me... there aren't any other reason. It's enough for me... I'm still thinking of getting in this way... the way that God may have shown me, that I must go there...