Really... I was in bed with mixture feelings... totally no idea what should I say.. And I was really don't wanna get up, til 10.30 AM.. Means, I must get prepared for go to school... Sigh~ still chat for a while... =____________= spent a little time, while waiting my Mom come home..

Then, waktu gw sampe sekolah, Yola ma Tine udah ngeliat gw dengan wajah berbinar-binar... ==" Well, nagih PJ... swt boro2 PJ.. dan nunggu sampe latian... I tried not to mind about this things again, since I realize that he tried his best to make me feel happy and comfort...at least, ga jatoh sampe tenggelem.. (hahahaha lebay banget ga sih?).. Kinda different than the last one I said to, beda banget rasanya. Secara waktu bilang, gw dicandain abis2an... yep.. mungkin it helps a little bit, ga teralu kaku lah...But.. seriously, I can stop those tears last night... Eventho I'd tried to smile, or another way... just flowing by the time, til I can handle myself.... rasanya... yah gitulah...

Dan gw pikir rasanya cukup hari ini aja kalo mo down (fans bilang gw nggak cocok kalo sedih lama2...), sebisa mungkin gw menghindari saat gw nyepi lagi, sendirian... =__= why? jelas karena itu saat yang paling EFEKTIF buat bikin down gw tambah parah... sebisa mungkin gw memaksakan diri untul ngebawelin diri sendiri, holding other feels behind, and facing the day as usual me.... I know it is a hard one, but I know that I'll be okay passing that...

Afterward, gw cuman mikir, kalo gw sedih kayak gitu, cuman bikin orangnya tambah kepikiran macem2 ... =______________= gw ga sejahat itulah selaen menyiksa diri juga menyiksa orang laen... then, I just wanna show him the smile ... ^___________________^ I'm feeling better than last night, really... and even I will se many things that may hurt me more than before, I believe that I can pass through it just like I passed last night... There's only one thing I should hide for my own ... people never need to know, I'm trying my best smiling through the days, even when I was fall down, it was hurt... when I saw anything was blurred because of rain, or can't see anything in the dark... I have many people who stands behind for me when I was fall down, when I was crying alone, when I was hurting myself, when I wanna go away from them, then let they are the one who pull me back...and never let me go again.

^_____________________________^ kurang lebar gak nih senyumnya....hopes this will help other.. even just a little..wished I'll not go down again..wished for it really...