Really, at the first time, I'm glad to see your face again today, but a simple sentences that came out from your mouth changed my mood all day today... Why? I think just like you'd refuse directly.

TT_____________TT I believe that you must have known about this, then how can you say that in front of me? Based on sympathy, I don't think that it is a good way for building a relationship with someone. It was a simple sentences.. But I don't know why, I feel very sad... And holding this tears again.. I really don't know why. Just like a refusal of something in my life.

My stomach getting sick again... Sigh~ There's no desire doing anything again right now. Eat, play, learn. Just a simple sentences that ruined my day today... Actually, I tried to change myself, but it was really hard to do, as I still meet him everyday. It is not easy, just like I'd imagined before.. but, the things that I still do is, I still keep a little space in my heart for my feelings to him until now.

Based on a theory, that 99% I think that he just playing around, busy with daily routinity, and, I still can't accept if this is just a game. Even I'd known about the risk, I known about all of that, I still decide to move on to the next step, deeper and deeper, and itwill hurt me more too in the future. Simple smile, simple sight that always catching around... Til now I still can't take any difference about when will you be serious or not... I know that you don't need someone like me to accompany even as friends. Compared to her, I was really nothing. In theory, I know that I should not compare myself to anyone, because each person have their own plus minus... But ... Why can't I found my own plus? I just see so many plus without minus inside her. The one that you'd chosen. So still you act just like I'm deserve for that changes?

I can't changed myself to be like her. I also can't become another person. But it's me. And I know you will never accept me just like the ordinary me. And when you were offering me to another guy, I just think that I will not mind about it. Offering just like I'm a things. Even I know he will accept me better than you. But, feelings is about feelings that we can't force or we manipulate so it will be done. Such a simple things that I know that you must have understood about it. Such you have already told me many things that you'd experienced, but for simple things like this. Even I'd been like this. I still an ordinary girl,ain't I?

Better feelings like this whenever I can't see you forever more, and you will go in your path and I in my path, and whenever God has set the time, we will meet again and walk again together. Just like we had already done in this three years... Thanks..