Today, I dunno why, but I feel weird and sad. Eventhough I saw the same smile of him... but really, there's something different ... and I don't know why. I feel just like I have no enough time anymore..

Then I feel dejavu in Art class.. Because of what?? When I was standing on the volley court and standing in front of junior high building...then making the skethc, I feel the same just like in my dreams. But also feel very sad, because of today... It feels so empty inside. Really..

I can't describe how ... but really, it was very suffer a lot. I just wanna feel my happiness. Yesterday, and many days ago... Spent with angry, sadness, tears, isn't that enough?

Wanna feel strong, and also I wanna be more than before... But, I feel that it will be weaken me a lot.. really..