I don't know exactly. But really, I was passing the new year just like I was celebrating by myself.

When it was 12:00 AM, I just looking around my house, and there's nobody there. Just sounds of fireworks that explode in the night sky. No one were going out. I and my little brother were playing fireworks, just both of us. Really. Feel so pathetic. Is that really, world has changed so much in a year? Really PATHETIC.

Last year,I still remember, many variety show during the countdown, people were gathering together with neighbor,and also together passing the new year... Sounds of trumpet, fireworks, people were yelling... Spirit of New Year, to become more better in the New Year, New Wishes, and many again...

I'm passing this year with loneliness, just like passing a usual day that moves everyday. Not only on 1st January, or any events day... Yeah. Doesn't it seem like usual day? And three days again, school will start again. Busy... again.

Feel no meaning. For honest, in each new year, I feel different, feel ready for something new in front.. but not just like now. I almost forget if tomorrow is New Year.. And passed it just like the other days. Again and again... Just like lately, I sleep very late, and feel empty. I don't know what will happen. There's many things again when school starts, many things.. I hope I'd strong enough facing that.