Today, I bought a big strawberry cake to school. Happy XD~ It was delicious, the first tart that I made with whipping cream... ><

I dunno why, but it was very weird... Yeah, as I know that I usually happy with things he done, but not today. Each words, each things, that made me sad, feel empty and sick, fall down deeper more. Deeper more, and I don't know why, I came into this thing again... Feel weird, regret, disappointed and painful..

Even I was very happy when I can finish my cake.. You know that I was dreaming for making a big strawberry cake for myself, and I'd made it, but just like you see... Things are ruined now... Not ruined at all, but maybe inside my heart, totally ruined...^^ Just like I had done none for today. Even when I'd tried my best. Even tomorrow is valentine day... The day to share love with others, friends, parent, or maybe someone you love..

Then go back to this condition, I am going to a reunion, from my elementary school.

Someday, I just want to be honest.. But sometimes, I must facing a fact that I can't stand for things like this... I must change my way, my directions, but it was hard when I'd already comfort with the way I'd walked for til now... And if I will fall in front, I will regret even just a little that I ever take this way with me...

Weird things. Even seems like he want to appreciate my works, but that eyes seems regret or maybe very ... yeah just like yesterday, he was saying thanks very weird, said things that he never said before... Just like yesterday and not like the day before...

Things that I must face from now... because, it will be suffer more then.