Even when we had already known about a truth, but when someone tell it in front of you, I beat that it cause more pain of honesty.

And that was an incident today....

Feel like I was facing the worse day in this month. TOTALLY REFUSAL... Again, my heart getting sick, and I can't stand again even for thinking or facing him again tomorrow. It's not about how strong I can stand for... but it stands for how do I feel, when I know that, it is ruined all... probability might not be 0, if it can be minus....

I don't know how can be ... again... it was so sick...I must ran again into the other world, world that I can release a little of this pain, world that just know me.