I remember about this parable, in a film, Passing the Giant...~ yeah something really go through my heart.

After today, I got busy with the squid~ stapling the paper, and sort some kind of things, then talk so much silly things such as.. (really, better I don't mention it..) how about farewell trip? And many more ==" make my head getting sick of silly question he asked for...

Now I'm telling about this parable...
There are 2 farmers in a village. Both of them are praying so that God will fall a big rain for their farm.. Because it is so dry there until they can't plant anything. The first farmer prepare his farm so that when rain comes, it was ready to be watered. But the other ones just let his farm and waiting for the rain... If you are the God, which one will get the rain??

Sometimes people asked something that they are not well prepared yet, but they are keeping pray and believe. It is not wrong. But if we still don't have enough capacity to gain that thing, how can God give it to us?? God will give at His time, when we'd prepared for things He'd prepared for us... Don't it will be a mess if God give it when we are not well prepared??

I'm thinking of this things, and find out that it was totally true. I am not prepared enough for His surprise, for things that I always want to, I always asked too... If I'd prepared enough, God will not hold it any longer, because He believe that I will not make him disappointed... Do I wrong?? So that know I must prepare myself. Prepare for the best, and also the worst, why? I'd promised myself to release... and also had decided that I will facing days just like days before, even feels so hurt, even I think about many things, even it was nonsense, even there's nothing I can changed, even I can't be compared, but... I still have the same feelings just like the other on his side has...

That's why... I must get prepared. If I'm not, it means I need more time again to wait.