Jauh banget...di dalam hati ini... ada banyak hal yang telah berubah. Setelah tahu tentang fakta ini pun, aku tetap nggak bisa...Aku merasa...kalo aku nggak bisa sedikitpun mencintai ataupun dapat dicintai...Aku merasa... jauh..jauh sekali dari semuanya... Entah...ada dimana. ...
Ow... really2 busy day... and now I'm dizzy, then still browsing for my History data for tomorrow presentation... Really, I could feel down today...And the same thing will happen again tomorrow...My...my...~_~Asli kepala rasanya cnud2 banget... aaaaaaaahhh... rasanya pengen maen game deh udah lama bgt gk nyentuh yg namanya game.. sad... T_T lum sempat2 ganti kompie neh, hiks2... nasib kali yah...Gak ada hiburan, stress...
Bener2 rasanya merindukan ketenangan, daritadi pagi nonstop... tapi gak bisa tidur, pengen ngitung saat2 usia 17 taun besok... T_t capek bgt dari Purwakarta blon bisa istirahat total... aaaaah... T_TCapek banget rasanya.... di Purwakarta...seru, banyak banget shocking2 day-nya...I'll tell later...Sigh... Want to move on to my bed.. ...
Sigh~ When I got back my test today, I was really disappointed that I was not maximize in doing test... Really, I hated it.. Won't do that again.. Sucks if I get lower score...I'm thinking today... Should I release all wishes? Eventhough it looks so fool or maybe just funny, fact that I will never reach about that....~_~ Sigh,have I still trust on...
~_~ Today... I want to try ... To releasse all of that, and removed that... Feel my heart will clean...I hope so.... I wanna to... Just hoping people can get back on me...Sometimes, I don't know why... If I was saying something to someone, I don't know how the others feel that I'm telling them the same... Really... People aren't same like that...~_~...
I really don't know why I'm feeling like this now... Right now really...Sometimes I was really sure that I'm strong enough to do all of this alone, and I would hang on without anyone... But in the middle of the condition, there must be a little time, that even just steal my attention for 1 seconds.... It's called by "Loneliness"Eventhough I think I...
Looks like most of player on my circle are going out... so maybe it's mean i'm out too~Sigh~ I won't hang on until no one beside us... ~_~ sepi bgt rasanya gak ada mereka...sad...Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhh tapi blon jd HA rasanya lom puas... Ntah mungkin bbrp hari lagi gw kudu n harus deh kayanya...Mindain smua data photoshop n dreamweaver gw juga ke flashdisk, mnt tlg...
I don't know exactly why but I could say like that for now.P eople are like that...It's not because I need to be cared everytime, but people could easily do that and make me hope too much on them, you know?? Just like a product, needs a good promotion to pull in customer...Sigh~Sometimes,they said that they care about me, that they love me...
Totally tired! Right now I still have to make link for my dreamweaver homework...~_~ aaaaaaaaahhh, thiz hand looks like would break when my work finish...Belon lagi ulangan ekop, dsb2, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa capek bgt hari ini tangan serasa mo lepas!!!! ~_~ SIGH~Why it feels hurt even there's no scratch on it...I just feel like there's a big hole inside that woulde never be cured... However...
Actually~_~ I feel already finished this problem for long time in the past, but looks like I haven'tAaaaaaaaaah...setidaknya gw udah berusaha jujur dengan apa yang tidak gw comfort!!I hate being like a doll...~_~ Sigh...Tapi ga tau kenapa juga.. Gw ngerasa ga nyaman...Even it's hurt me so much but I still can't do anything...~_~ SIGH~ It's a sign that I'm weak at all... Really,...
I dunno why but I think, lately, I feel uncomfortable with my performance... Sometimes with my own attitude, sometimes with my own body..yeah~ I dunno why, people keep saying that I must keep on a diet ~_~ you know, terribly I hated DIET so much from a long time ago until now...~_~ but sometimes I feel I want a perfect body too, eventhough...
Sigh~I never know how many I take a deep breath today~________~Quite tired...T_T i don't know why.. I feel like hated myself...T_T sigh~When do I can appreciate myself?I don't know why...~_~ ...
Eventhough today I was really2 tired, but thiz noon I'm going to hang out with my friends...~_~ Some relaxation from our daily activity ... Sigh~Sometimes I feel that I have many2 inspiration for my artwork to do, but sometimes I was no idea why I can't put it on my paper and just inside my head??Sigh~ Sometimes I want to back into my...
