I dunno why but I think, lately, I feel uncomfortable with my performance... Sometimes with my own attitude, sometimes with my own body..yeah~ I dunno why, people keep saying that I must keep on a diet ~_~ you know, terribly I hated DIET so much from a long time ago until now...~_~ but sometimes I feel I want a perfect body too, eventhough it's not a big deal for... but T_T yeah you know, girls are girls.. sometimes I was asking why I can't be like my little brother? As many he can eat, but he won't getting fat..~_~ girls are easier getting fat even just eat a little sweets and anything...

Sigh~ I can't mind myself just eat a piece of wheat bread and nonfat milk in the morning, vegetables (I don't know in this case would be salad, or other maybe) for my lunch, then AN APPLE for my dinner... HELL! Really HELL Day if I must do that..~ But it works on another. My mother's friend has a daughter, and her daughter did it...~_~ even for many years ago, I still better than she... so sometimes I've been asking like this, if others can do that, why I can't??

~_~ Sigh... The only problems just that I can't keep the rule.. even just for one month~_~ Sometimes my father got home then brought me grilled fish, my fav food, then what'll I said?? It's impossible that I'll say I'm on a diet, and won't eat that... Tough choice... But that's I am.. I eat whenever I want to eat, and don't eat when I don't want to eat.. Because for some days, I ever be like that. I didn't touch any food in home...~_~ I feel like didn't hungry at all....

So, that...~_~ I keep asking in myself... I am not a person that like to do what I didn't like. I mean, I won't struggle to pain myself...I won't I won't and I won't... ~_~ Sigh~ If I get home after school, my mom will already finished cook our meal, and also delicious one. She is a good chef~_~ really, the best I've ever know...

So how can I refuse thaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttt??? Impossible.... ~_~ So.. how can I keep on going my diet...~_~ absolutely I'm too tired to do some sports at home, really... ~_~ schools really absorb I don't know how many percent of my power... Sigh~

Somehow... DAMN!! ~_~ As long as I've been heard about them, I'm getting mad... Not all but just some of them...Really, actually, ~_~ before this prob came, I ever felt that.. yeah something like, they have done what did they told me as my fault? So, do you think that was FUNNY?? ~_~ ahahahah people are always saying like that....Even just for one big hit.. I think they wouldn't get it from me, but from others...