Do you ever hear? If someone's heart is being hurt for a long time and often, it can turn into a rock. As hard as rock, as cool as ice... If you think that I'm just wondering around... you should think twice.

How should I forget... People who blame on me without any kindness, without any sympathy, or even just more than prefer to do it cruelly... And how could I forget people who betray me.. that I'd give them a trust~ so that I will never ever trust you when you'd disappointed me even just once, I will not.. And it's effect even on him...

Today, I even can't swallow my breakfast, my lunch and pass my dinner. Rather than I said, there's no hungry, maybe it will fit, because I feel hurt so that I don't feel hungry at all. Now, I'm here, typing half of my task. Almost finish but I'll not finish it today. I still have many things to be done. And why? Kind heart could turn into hard and cold one?

People have their own limit for tolerance. Tolerance about other bad habit, bad things, bad words. And when it reach their limits, it will turn all. It will change almost 99% condition. And it happen to me, not for the first time. But I even can't count for the how many times...

People that I should not forgive, not because I could not forgive. People that I should not trust, not because I could not trust. That's why the Bible said, human, no matter how perfect he/she is, they will disappoint you one day, but when you're in God, God will never disappoint you... And I admit that it was a true fact, even sometimes God gives me a hard way to do. But the result never disappoint me, right?

I ever want to be honest, but they never give me a chance to. I ever want to try for the second times, but I was too scared that it will be the same... Then what should I do?? The same thing happens with people that today disappoint me a lot. Even he never realize that he has been already disappointing me, he never realize, and will never go for apologies...

People that I should never forgive, people that I should never smile to. But until today, they still never realize because I never be honest. And when I am saying this truth, there's no one will accept...It's kinda funny right??

Then, I just thinking, after a long time ago. Today... it has turned into an icy statue inside. As hard as rock, as cool as ice..