I've just got home now...~_~ Not tired at all after my part time today, there's no too many kids...~_~ so I can relax...But now my little brother makes me dizzy with his Math homework then keep asking me and make me mad (mamad!!!)....I'd like to doing my comic but yeah ya know, I'm not in good mood to colouring that so.. I want...
Hare ene asle gw capek pek pek pek buangettttttttttttttt!!! Very tiring me...In the morning I met someone that, ugh, I won't say her name but, she made me quite ~_~ feel bad in the morning with act like that, but I don't mind~_~ for what??After that, I was very busy with so many subjects!!!!!Eventhough I just keep drawing at any lessons... hahahaha I...
Dari kemaren2, gw mati2an tracing gambar...skarang wkt colouring gw harus menyerah....T_T hiks meski sejujurnya ga rela.. but I have less time to do it...So that, I feel very2....T_T useless after done that...sad... sedih bgt, rasanya capeeeeek bgt, kerasa bener capeknya... T_T kecewa, kalo pun dipaksain hasilnya pasti ga bagus...jadi I GIVE UP... gw bener2 masih harus banyak belajar lagi yah no matter in...
Hari ini waktu bangun pagi kaki udah nga sakit loh~_~ tapi gw gak bisa jalan ....swt~Akirnya ga masuk, ga ikutan tes Inggris...Hiyaaaauuu...tetep ae sakit nih kaki, udah diurut ~_~Skarang masi sakit,ajaln blom bener2 bgt, tp badan sakit smua... ~_~ Luckily tomorrow is my DAY OFF!! Sigh~T_T i miss some one... ...
Tau gak betapa naasnya gw hari ene!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!Kaki gw kecengklek sangat ama super duper PARAHnya, gw merasa kaki gw mati rasa waktu kecengklek n then 50% uratnya keplintir di tengah2... DAMN! DAMN! DAMN!!!Gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa setelah diurut malah makin sakit, mana rncn mo ngetrace komik lageh, buset daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!T_T sial amat gw hare ene...Udah sariawan ga mud makan, sariawannya kegigit berkali2, sampe berdarah lagi~ astaga... yang...
I know that life must go on but... I have no idea to face this!! There's like no other way to do except that... But really it's gonna be hurt....T_TSigh~ Finally I get the Adobe Photoshop after searching a lot of them in Google... ~_~ sigh, looks like I want to continue my project, win or not it doens't matter anymore... Even I...
I don't know how to start...But now... I feel that my heart keep cry and never stop~...I can't stop, when I said so tough and very cruel, and even didn't notice when he cry and asked calmly... but I must... I have no choice...God... why don't You kiil me rather than I must hurt the other?I still can't stand for it...Hurt..just like I...
I don't know why... but actually I get a feel that's something bad will happen~Maybe...I musn't in here, in this world, so that I won't make them unhappy...Sigh~ even they seems happy or smile whenever they were hearing my problems, but..maybe they have they own feel that they can't tell me... to keep my feel...Sorry... sorry friends... I won't again... ...
Asleeeeeeeeeee capek bgt gwah hare ene~_~Anak2 lari kocar kacir kesana kemare kae apaan deh...udah begitu skali dateng mbludak beserta 'army' masing2 ya susternya, sodaranya, nyokapnya, penuh, sesek n juga lgi ada acara dr skulnya smua ttg lomba gambar kebersihan...~_~ rame lah n otomatis kita2 yg jadi asisten kena sasarannya wewww...Capek asli... Lom lagi ada anak yang narik2, yang tereak2, yang blon digambarin...@_@ mo...
~_~ Exactly I don't know where I could start but...~Hari ini gw SIAL bgt!!! Pagi2 lupa bawa baju OR deng~gubraks gw langsung panic mode ON, n berkat petuahnya se Randy akirnya gw pinjem baju ama anak IPA, Lita, MY SAVIOUR!!!! ~_~ huahm.... finish~ P.E. win 2 set, volley ball...Then after 2 hour History, I made some sketch of my class and view out...
I'm taking my happiness right now!!FLY OVER THE SKY!!!~_~Now... take a deep breathe...then...let it gone... ...
Hari ini...gw manggil mereka semua dan nanya ttg gimana kejelasan persahabatan ini...I think some of them that already hated me so much, and fortunately I can control myself not to do anything dangerous...Ada yang ga ada hubungannya sama sekali, dan rasa2nya gak pernah gw repotin, tapi ngomong seenak2nya~ yah, gw ga sakit hati sich... as long as I feel I didn't do that...
I hasn't found any title yet...Yang pasti sekarang kepala gw rasanya berat...Haaaaaaaaaaaaahhh...but I feel a little comfort now than before... Thanks...Sad, but I have no idea...~_~Then what should I do... I'm a little confused...~_~ for now I am already calm, but later? I don't know...Waiting for the sunrise... my eyes can't close now... ...
Then why?Kenapa gw diciptakan kalo hanya akan selalu gagal dan mengecewakan?Kenapa gw harus bisa nggambar kalo akirnya gw ga pernah bisa nunjukin kemampuan itu?Kenapa gw harus bisa belajar? Kalo pada akhirnya, ada orang yang bisa menggantikan kedudukan itu??Kenapa gw harus dikenal sebagai gw yg sekarang? Kalo sekarang, gw bisa tergantikan dengan mudah...Kenapa gw sekarang ada di dunia ini? Kalo ga ada yang menginginkan...
Kenapa?Rasanya gw gak perlu menjelaskan apa2 lagi... Karena mereka sekumpulan orang ga punya otak yang ga ada hati? Meski tangan gw udah mau banget melayang di pipi mereka, tapi kenapa??Buat apa? Satu dua bahkan sepuluh tamparan ga akan bisa...menggantikan sekecewa dan sesakit apa yang udah gw rasain dari mereka... Biarpun gw udah mencoba untuk maafin,tapi rasanya sabar itu juga udah sampe pada batasnya...Gw...
Sometimes when I was crying... I hopes there's somebody would came just to hear me and wait until I stop cry even he didn't say anything to stop me crying...Sometimes when I was laughing, I thought from now, then until what time? That I never know anything about what God wants on my life?Sometimes when I was sad, or maybe when I was...
Ga tau kata apa yang pas buat melengkapinya~ tapi ini TERRIBLE!! Asisten kurikulum ga beres! Atur jadwal gak becus bikin capek gw sekolah tiap hari... DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN!~_~ I feel tired..very very tired...Capek, kapan sih libur??? Zzz, pegel banget tau ga tiap hari kae gini..~_~ ukh...Sigh~Today I felt about that again. Lonely~...even that besides me full of noise, even there's many people...
Semenjak masalah kemaren itu,hubungan kami lom sepenuhnya kembali... Yeah, I still feel the distances between us. But I'm trying not to keep in more and more further. There's no reason I must keep on my own and sacrifice this to get more pain again...Sometimes...when I breathe..why feel so dizzy?Or when I want to fly...then I never get over the clouds?But when I go...
Hari ini...yah tetep jalanin kegiatan seperti biasa. But, ubelieveable, it's very tiring me...~_~ I don't know why...Most of my time at school, I spent it for thinking something.. About my comics draft, buts mostly, I don't know what is the one that I'm thinking about?? Feel strange that I can't stop writing on my file.Sigh~I'm tired of this. ...
